Spiritual Crossroad

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -- his good, pleasing and perfect will. " Romans 12:2

Often in life, we will find ourselves in crossroads. when we have to make decisions to turn left or right, or to go straight. many times though, we might find ourselves Hentak Kaki (to borrow a drill command) - meaning to stay marching in same position..

I find myself in this very position, not on terms of career or serving or relationships ( although this all could be true too), but on " spiritual terms" .

I find myself at the cross road of following Jesus with all my heart .

It's true.

It's true that I have prayed the sinner's prayer and invited Jesus into my heart. It's true that I attend church services, cell group, serve and called myself a Christian, I pray and I have a relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ. It's true.

But it's also true that I am not walking 100% with the Lord. I read the bible, i listen to sermons and teaching, i understand. But yet i do not always follow His word. Yes, sometimes, i do, but sometimes i don't too.

And its really frustrating when i find myself not always yielding to His will.

i just sense that God is questioning my committment level to Him and His kingdom. right to the heart level. When we talk about the kingdom of God, it means that there is a king, and that king is our Lord God Almighty, who is loving and compassionate wants to enjoy a deep intimate relationship with us. God is good. But He requires us to submit or surrender fully to Him so that we may really have a eternal life with Him. (and its starts today, don't have to wait till we get to heaven)

i think i will not play hide and seek no more with the Lord, but i will really face the truths about me and allow God to work. but its a decision on my part. I have decided to repent of my past, and allow of the Holy Spirit to renew my mind (read Roman 12:2 above) and follow Christ 101% from this day on.

May the Lord help us.

Amen.